"Dirty Ugly Toy" By: K. Webster - Book Review
Five freaking incredibly gritty stars for this one...this book was so… Wow. First of all, let me gush about this gorgeous cover. I needed it on my bookshelf from the moment I saw it. Gah! It's stunning and fits the story perfectly.
From the very first page I was glued to this book. We meet Braxton Kennedy as he is dispensing of his most recent ‘toy’ name Swan. She clearly isn’t ready to leave him, but he makes it clear she has served her purpose and he is wiping his hands of her.
“Please, sir,” she begins again, “Don’t do this. I love you!”
They all love me.
How could they not?
“Swan, I could never love a whore. You were nothing more than a toy to me. Now you’re done baby.”
He has done this with nineteen woman. He searches the UK for a prostitute he wants, has her sign a contract to be his toy for six months and at the end of that term, they are paid very handsomely. He doesn’t get attached because to him they are just dirty ugly whores that he made pretty. He is searching for his twentieth toy and is determined to make this one special.
I want a new toy.
One that I can restore.
An ugly thing turned pristine and shiny.
Jessica ‘Rabbit’ is a little rough when we meet her. She has just been robbed of her money and heroin by a john and is searching for her next job to get a fix. A black car pulls up and gives her an offer she can't afford to refuse.
“I want you to be my toy for six months.”
I raise a brow in question, “For five hundred grand?”
He nods and smirks, waiting for me to answer.
“Can you get me heroin?” I ask bluntly.
“I promise to take care of that little addiction of yours.”
Rich people always have the best hook-up to the best drugs. “Deal. Want me to suck your cock now? I’m in desperate need of a hit. Let’s get this shit started Ken Doll.”
I’m entertained by the way his vein on his forehead protrudes. He’s pissed and it’s funny.
“Sign this agreement and we can start,” he says in a detached tone. “And don’t ever fucking call me Ken Doll again or I’ll backhand that skanky little mouth of yours.”
Right off the bat, I loved their banter. He is a huge prick and she comes right back at him. I cracked up laughing through a lot of this book. She sees this opportunity as a vacation. She doesn’t have to worry about food or heat, but she quickly learns he never intended of giving her more drugs and that’s the first time she really breaks down. After having his right hand man clean her up from her withdrawals, he has his personal stylist make her over to turn her into a pretty shiny ‘toy’ for his dinner guests. He knows nothing about her past, which is one of wealth and education, so as he tries to humiliate and degrade her, she shows off her intelligence and knowledge on the conversation. Of course he is furious that his plan failed.
Jessica or ‘Bunny’ as he call her, stays in his home and when he shows her the ‘princess’ room, she freaks out and wants nothing to do with it. She would rather sleep in the ‘Hole’ than in that room, and the ‘Hole’ is a room recreated to be a place for him to play with his toys where they would feel more ‘at home’. It’s a filthy room spray painted in graffiti with a piss stained mattress, old cigarette butts, trash, and other disgusting stuff. He like to give them beauty and riches and then rip it all away to remind them of who they are.
I’m not sure why he wants to have sex in here. This room doesn’t belong in this gorgeous house. This room is sinister and evil.
“I bet you’re craving a hit, aren’t you whore?” he sneers. “Want me to find your pretty little vein and fuck you up with your precious skag? Is that what you want? What you deserve?”
Braxton’s back story is horribly sad and his need to ‘fix’ these girls stems from that. He has suffered physical and mental abuse and saw things and a very young age that affected his head. He was hungry and cold all the time, which are two things he refuses to be now that he is filthy rich. His back flashes made me teary eyed half the time.
Her story is quite different from his, but he can see a lot of the child he used to be in her. He wants so badly to see her a certain way, he does fight himself on it. She begins to really care for him, his violence and his kindness, all of the many personalities he seems to have. She is running from someone though and when that threat make a reappearance, she doesn’t know if she should tell Braxton.
They both think about wanting her to stay past the six months, though he has a much harder time with it. She has almost began to believe in a life with him until she thinks she finds the proof that she is nothing more than the others.
“When you go to wherever it is you’re going. Are you getting another toy like me?”
His bellowing laughter startles me and I scowl, “It’s not funny to me,” I sass.
He flashes me a panty melting grin and drops a kiss on my forehead. “Oh, Bunny. It’s quite hysterical to me you see,” his voice softening from amused to possessive, “There could never be another toy like you.”
He did drive me crazy sometimes, because he would say and do such cruel things when moments before he was just thinking of how different she was and how much he cared for her. His stubbornness made me want to shake him! Jessica is as much more than I originally thought and while I loved her through the whole book, toward the end, I gained a type of respect for her.
I don’t want to be Jimmy’s punching bag.
I don’t want to be Corgy’s sex slave.
I don’t want to be Brax’s toy.
I just want to be Jessica.
I don’t like putting spoilers in my reviews so there are so many juicy little morsels I want to put in here, but I don’t want to ruin it for anyone. This is the first book in three years that has made me feel the way this book did. I don’t give five stars easily and this one surpassed my expectations exponentially. I actually dreamt about this, and that has never happened to me with a standalone novel before. There are some very dark and disturbing things in this book, and that’s my bag. I am going to read everything by this author I can get my hands on. This is the kind of book that made me fall in love with the genre. Recommended for 18+…obviously
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-Charity B.
